Small Disappointments

I have a lot of things that I want to do this year. I want to do something with my writing. I want to run more. I want to spend more time building cool things out of Lego. There are other goals, but these are the three that I am most frustrated about right now. It may still be January, but I’m feeling like a bit of a failure on these three fronts.

I’ve been working on my writing for a couple of years now. I have a couple of novels in rough draft and I am working on the manuscript for a third. That might not seem like failure, but a drawer full of drafts doesn’t make a finished novel. This needs to be the year that I take one of these and make it real. That means edits and revisions and getting some real critique. Mostly it means that I need to be writing.

I wrote 50k words during the last NaNoWriMo, but I didn’t finish the story. My intention had been to take a few weeks off and then start writing again. A little procrastination goes a long way though, and now it has been almost two months since I worked on it. I need to start writing every day until it’s done. Even if I only write a few hundred words a day, I’ll be making progress.

So, I just started writing again. It was crappy, but I’m excited that I wrote anyway. Even crappy words can be polished into something, but a blank page isn’t shit.

The running is hard. We’ve had a cold winter here in Little Bay Root and I’ve been giving in to it. Last year, I ran all winter long in rain and cold and even snow. This year I’ve had a harder time maintaining my momentum. I just started running again last week after not getting out in the last month or so and I’ve been sluggish and stiff and struggling.

Nothing to do about the running, but keep it up. Even short runs help. I’ll build my distance again. I just have to keep going.

I’ve been building with Lego again lately too (and blogging too). My goal is to have creations that I can show at conventions, but so far I’ve struggled. I think that I have underestimated the learning curve. I’ve barely sorted my collection into a condition where it is very usable and I really haven’t taken the time to learn to translate my ideas into bricks.

This is another slow one, but I’ll keep at it. I browse Flickr and go to PortLUG meetings to talk to other enthusiasts. I’ll take my sketch builds and collect a few pointers. Practice will pay off in time.

So there I am with a scattering of goals and so little progress. It may not be spring yet, but I need to stop hibernating and get some things done. Bam!